Healing Trauma Through Magic

Know Thyself also means healing whatever resides in us that keeps us from receiving Light.

~Rabbi Giyam

We don’t know what we don’t know about how trauma affects us, how patterns and habits are created. Scientists are still studying the brain and some are looking closely at the energetics of the brain.

These patterns and habits can control us subconsciously unless we go within and bring them up to the surface to be healed. This is a small glimpse at my personal journey of healing trauma.


Shut Down

When I was about 27 years old I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder and Complex PTSD. I wouldn’t leave the house or get out of bed. It took everything within me to get up and take my children to school. If the phone rang, I wouldn’t answer it. If someone knocked at the front door, I would not open it. I felt unworthy, ugly, stupid, and all the other things that were said to me repeatedly when I was a child.

And I had Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder from physical and emotional abuse. Friends would try to come by and get me out of the house but I was afraid to go out. I came up with dozens of reasons why I needed to stay home. I didn’t want anyone downloading their problems on me because I would be so tired after they left. I really had no idea how much trauma and dysfunctional family patterns were driving my reactions and emotions. They were also affecting my health.

Addiction to opiates was a real problem. I didn’t realize I was addicted because my doctor kept giving me medications for Fibromyalgia. One night I woke up in withdrawals from the medications. I had to go to the Emergency Room and passed out. I was sent to a rehab facility for 3 days. Something within me shifted from that experience. I was like a different person. I got clean from the medications and made some big changes in my life. Prayer, meditation, and my daily rituals got me through.

I am the first person in my family to get clean and stay clean.

I really feel like a chain breaker.


Beginning The Journey

One day, on a whim, I went through the phone book looking for a Massage Therapist because I was in so much physical pain. I made an appointment with Erin Wallace and had a wonderful healing massage. After the massage she talked to me about DNA Activation. I knew right away that I needed that activation. I scheduled it and was very amazed that I could feel her working in my energy field. As I walked out of her healing center, I noticed that every color was more vivid and something deep was shifted in me.

Over the next few weeks as I laid in bed, I would see angelic ribbons of color - red, green, blue, and pink. I felt the angels working on me and my fears started to dissipate. I didn’t feel alone because of their healing presence. I felt them nudging me if I stayed in bed too long. I can feel their presence all the time now and connecting with them is part of my daily rituals. And I know that they are with me everywhere.


Coming Out Of The Darkness And Into The Light

A therapist once told me that Exposer Therapy would be good for me. This required a lot of courage on my part. Through Exposer Therapy I was able to go places I would not normally go. Bars, amusements parks, concerts and any other large gatherings gave me severe anxiety. Sometimes I would throw up.

When I started doing morning and evening rituals I found I felt better about going to these places. My social life was boosted and I could take my kids to a lot of places. And my relationship with them grew stronger. I had checked out for a long time and it really weighed on my heart. But they have forgiven me for not being a present mom. Both of my children got DNA Activations when they were teenagers. It filled them both with Light and they found purpose and direction. Erin Wallace is dear to us because through her we were were shifted.

 

Meeting Like Minded People

It was very healing for me to be around other people who thought like me. I attracted a lot of women who were loving and supportive. We talked a lot about knowing ourselves rather than being occupied with what other people in our lives were doing. We went on pilgrimages to the most beautiful nature spots like beaches and labyrinths. I was very grateful to have attracted these women into my life.

After training in a Dianic Women’s Temple and receiving so many healings through the Modern Mystery school, I started facilitating healing circles a few times an month and found my passion in this work so I am dedicated to it at a soul level.

Healing from Trauma is hard work and it takes a lot of courage. This is why I encourage my spiritual sisters through ritual, community, tears, and a lot of hugs.

I am beyond grateful.


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Written by:
Shannon Freeman 

High Priestess, Goddess Rising Project




Shannon lives in Northern California. She is a mom, Intuitive Healer, Magdalene Priestess, Initiate in the Modern Mystery School, Shamanic Practitioner, and perpetual student of the mysteries. She has held ritual all over the East Bay.  

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